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How To Save Pics Images Text Sound Files From the Internet With Evernote

It’s basically a drag n’ drop digital scrapbook/ bulletin-board/ container of stuff. FEAR NOT- I’ll show you step-by-step. It looks like a lot, but it’s super easy!

Evernote is another cloud computing application. That’s not important; what you need to know is how to use it and I’m gonna show you how. Read on—>

Evernote's Home Page

What Does Evernote Do?

Evernote lets you pluck anything off the internet and drag it into your own Evernote app for storage. Hell, you can even edit it there or add little notations to it, like Post-It’s.

What can you save into it Images/ photos/podcasts/links/scans

What else? Make To-Do-Lists right into it/ quick text notes/ draw a quick doodle/import folders into it/ etc.

Can I use it outside my web browser? Yes.

Does it come with a bookmarklet? Yes.

Can I use it in my smartphone? Yes.

Can I use it in my iPad? Yes.

Evernote is FREE for up to 5 gigs of storage space. You wanna store more than that per month, you have to cough up $5 a month for a Premium Account.

Smartphone downloads are also FREE. Awesome!

Evernote also supports these languages:

Language support for Evernote

Evernote’s On the Cloud

Like I said. Evernote’s a cloud app. Meaning that everything gets stored in cyberspace by them. So if you constantly clip on your phone, and that phone gets stolen or dropped in water and dies, the info is still in cyberspace because that’s where it all gets stored.

But that’s only as long as you Sync your new clippings…

Evernote from the web doesn’t have the Sync button; pay attention. Evernote for the computer (standalone) and for mobile all have it. That is because everytime you take a pic of something, or find something on the web that you wanna save to Evernote, the Sync button makes web Evernote understand you added more stuff. So it ‘syncs’ with your mobile or computer to add the new goodies.

So that’s the Sync button mystery explained in laments terms.

I started typing this post some 4 months back. Seems like Evernote added a page for the Sync button in simplified terms:

Why I Use Evernote

Evernote is a pretty darn good app. Actually, the reason I downloaded it was because my friend bought a condo and since I decided to go move in with him in a few weeks, we’re talking about interior design. So I’ve been dragging & dropping pics of pillows, furniture, interiors into Evernote. You know, to inspire and drive our design tastes.

He lives in NC and I’m in NY so this is where Evernote REALLY helps, since we can’t meet face to face until the move.

Plus, we share it so he can log in and see the same notebooks I’ve been saving to all the scrap images off the internet. He can add and delete any of it’s content, same as I can. It kicks email’s ass because there’s no worry about attachments or accidentally ending up inside a spam folder. It’s simple and right in front of you.

This would’ve been great for us when we entered that design contest 2yrs ago. We kept emailing photos, pictures and drawings of prototypes and we had diff. schedules so checking email was cumbersome.

As a project management tool, this rules!

What Evernote Looks Like

Welcome to the front page of Evernote!

Evernote's front page

You with me so far? Good. Everything I said up to this point sounds like murky yakety-yak, but I’ll show you how easy-squeezy it all is.

Sign Up With Evernote

Evernote takes up this much space on your computer so check your requirements:

Evernote is about 80Mb big

Evernote sign up menu

So that’s the menu where you sign up. ( Once you do, it’ll create your Evernote account for you. Looks like this:

Welcome to Evernote menu

Evernote on the web. Notice there's no Sync button.

So this menu is your Evernote account which you are using inside Evernote itself. It comes with a little welcome message up there called Welcome to Evernote with a check box.  The message is a brief overview of what you can do in Evernote. If you check the box, it’s selected for whatever action you want to take, including deleting to the Trash bin.

We can leave the message alone for now. What you want to do; now that you’re signed in; is download the standalone version of Evernote. Doing so would be like using Tweetdeck instead of Twitter. We say yes to this.

Download Evernote For the Computer (stand-alone platform)

Go to

This is the download page:

Evernote download

Here is a list of all the gadgets you can download Evernote into (as stated on their website):

For computers
Web clipper
Mac OS X
For site owners
Site Memory button
For mobile devices
iPhone / iPod Touch
Palm Pre / Palm Pixi
Windows Mobile

I use the standalone version for the PC for the same reason I first began using Tweetdeck. I’m more comfortable using the platform side-by-side of my web browser instead of inside it.

Evernote and Firefox side by side

How To Use Evernote

How to use it? Simple.

You ‘Clip’ anything you see off the internet and dump it right into Evernote. Like a sorta scrapbook.

(note that Evernote has folders it calls Notebooks)

So let’s say you already downloaded and installed Evernote. Go ahead and log out of and open the installed version, log in.

We are brought again into your Evernote account. Remember the welcome message? Yeah, double-click on it:

Evernote's Web Clipper

What, is a Web Clipper indeed!

Well, it’s the magic button you click on to clip something off the internet so you can dump it into Evernote.

So let’s install it, shall we? Sure. The Web Clipper is located on the Downloads page:

Web Clipper button for Evernote

Evernote for Safari

As the picture above shows, go ahead and click down on that green button I circled in pink, and place it on your bookmarks list in your web browser of choice. (I’m using Safari in this tutorial) And that’s it. There it is, ready to go.

If you’re using Firefox, the Web Clipper page automatically resets itself to detect Firefox and offers a plug-in for it:

Evernote for Firefox

How To Clip Images In Evernote

Let’s try to clip any ol’ image off the internet. I go to a website with a really nice picture of this pink piano:

Image from web to clip into Evernote

So I wanna ‘Clip’ the image. But, how?

Select the image you want, ( I highlited mine) and click on the Clip To Evernote button (that’s what the Web Clipper is, silly!)

Clipping (saving) to Evernote

Aaand BINGO!

Confirmation of clipping to Evernote

Then you click the Done button at the bottom there and that’s it.

Now it shows up inside your Evernote dashboard:

successfull image clipping

Wasn’t that FUN?! Yes! Yes it was!

You want MOAR? You got it!

So I clipped two more images:

Take a moment to study the next image. It’s the middle pic you see above after I double-clicked on it:

saved image inside Evernote

  • You can always return to the website the image came from (even if you don’t remember) by clicking on Go To Source. By scrolling the cursor over it, you see the name of the website you clipped from.
  • Where it says 4 Notes at the top left, that means 4 items are saved into my Evernote account. That’s the Welcome message and 3 images I saved.
  • At the very top you have the option of Invite A Friend to open and see the same content you already saved.

Let’s save something else to Evernote.

How To Save Tweets In Evernote

So if you have Twitter (and who doesn’t?) you can save them too.

Go to and sign in.

*PLEASE NOTE*Just because you’re logged into the standalone Evernote doesn’t mean you’re automatically logged into it at their website.

To link your Evernote account with Twitter you must log in first. Then go into Settings> Twitter and link or unlink to your Twitter account.

Evernote Sign In page

Linking Twitter with Evernote

The notification that you’re now linked should appear now.

Evernote Twitter linkup confirmation

And now I sign into my  Twitter account and check for that Evernote tweet:

check your Twitter for Evernote's message

And by clicking on that link, you finally activate your Twitter to Evernote. Done.

From here on, just Direct Message any tweet with @myEN and those tweets get sent to your Evernote account.

Customizing Your Evernote

As you can see below, I can save Twitter replies from my account right into Evernote.

The Basics of Evernote

TAGS: You can apply tags to items same as anything. Makes categorizing easier.

NOTEBOOKS: Your default notebook is labeled with your account’s username. You can add more of your own, or download pre-made notebooks on all kinds of information from Evernote’s library which totally rocks, btw.

ITEMS VIEW LIST: Everything you clip is listed in that middle pane there. When you scroll over it, it shows up large on the right pane there. In this example, I used the Bugatti espresso machines as you can plainly see. The right pane shows you the tag name and the website link it came from. Click the web link and it’ll take you to the website.

SYNC BUTTON: After you finish clipping stuff, clicking the Sync button allows standalone Evernote to update your account at so it can contain all your new clippings. Works the same way if you clip from your cell phone or wherever.

CURRENT MONTHLY USAGE: This is a meter Evernote uses to keep track of how much space every month your clippings take up. Which is why they offer a paid upgrade for more space.

TRASH: Just check off any notes in your list and click the Trash can on the left window pane. Empty it. Done.

How To Draw In Evernote

Yes, you can draw and doodle in Evernote! Here’s how:

drawing in Evernote

*NOTE* You can use your mouse, but I have a Wacom tablet so I use my pen stylus which is a whole lot easier!

Select the Ink Note icon at the top, and the memopad shows up in the right pane as you can see above. Then select the pencil icon. (pink arrow’s pointing to it)

Those 3 List View buttons will organize your clippings however you want to see them arranged. I click on it and you can see my doodle automatically saved into All Notebooks. This is because I didn’t specify where to save it.

How To Write In Evernote

Apparently, you can also write notes or documents inside Evernote:

Writing in Evernote

How To Upload Folders In Evernote

Yes, you can upload an entire folder into Evernote. But only as long as you still have enough monthly space in your account. (file  size cannot exceed size allotted per month)

For example, here’s my file folder:

Let’s upload. Tools> Import Folders > and find the one you want in the list. If you don’t see what you want, click the Add button and search for it:

Uploading a folder in Evernote

It’s a little confusing to say you can upload a folder, because the folder itself doesn’t get uploaded. It’s the folder’s content that gets into Evernote:

Folder contents uploaded to Evernote

So it worked as you can see. The tattoo images have been imported from the Tat folder.

You see the monthly Current Monthly Usage meter there? It’ll turn red and a pop-up warning window will appear if that folder is too big to import. You can get around this if you shrink down the size of your folder’s contents, such as photos. Or, if you delete some of the files in that folder, that’ll take up less space.

Now there’s two ways you can view each item. In the right window pane, or in a floating window by itself. Neat, huh?

Viewing preferences in Evernote

YOu can even select a note and add notations to it, like so:

Add text to notes in Evernote

And you can change the colors and fonts as well…

Change fonts and colors of text in Evernote

Customizing rules!

How To Email From Evernote

YES, you can email any content inside Evernote to yourself! Yes we can-can!

Select any note (item) in your Evernote account and click the Email icon you see at the top. That easy.

Emailing from Evernote

Again, if you’re extremely close to using up what’s left of your monthly storage, you may not be able to perform the emailing action.

In this example, I was able to send the image to my email account as you can see:

How To Save Sound, Audio Files In Evernote

Let me explain one thing here. You can save the audio files into Evernote, but Evernote cannot web clip the actual sound byte because it’s not like it has a download manager. You cannot use Evernote to do any MP3 downloads.

What you can do is add that download page with the download link as a new item into Evernote. You can even drag n’ drop the actual MP3 into it. (provided you downloaded one)

Like any other web clipping, you just highlight the download link and click the Evernote icon. Usually works; if the website’s formatted weird it may not clip all the content.

I did not have enough space in my Evernote this month, so the MP3 didn’t make it in. It did however, make a link to where it is stored on my computer as you can see above.

I actually love Evernote so much that I made  a second account. So I logged into it and tried the same thing; I have more space in this account:

Warning message in Evernote

The warning message came up again because I’m dangerously close to exceeding the storage limit, however, the info was saved into the note. So I have not only the link to the website for the MP3 but also, the actual MP3. Because I dragged it in there after I downloaded it.

As a bonus, right after dragging the MP3 into my note, my computer automatically starts playing it with whatever default media player you have loaded onto your computer:

Adding an MP3 into a new note in Evernote

Someone wrote this in the Evernote forums about tips for MP3s in Evernote. It’s a quick read and informative.

And if you’re interested, the Dial2D0 app can be found in the Trunk. It offers a FREE and paid version of a software that transcribes your Evernote sound files.

What Is the Trunk Button For?

I’m covering this now because I wanted you to get the hang of Evernote first, before exploring all the add-on doodats. The Trunk button is that second button you see at the top of the menu with the plus sign. It takes you to a page listing  all the apps compatible with Evernote.

Here’s one of them. Did you know that there’s an app for scanning receipts & business cards???

The app for Evernote scans receipts and businesscards

Which Web Browsers Evernote Supports

If you’re using an older version of your web browser, a similar message like this will pop up:

Evernote currently supports these web browsers

Help For Evernote

I think I’ve pretty much covered all the basic functions. My only gripe is that because I have two Evernote accounts, the web clipper automatically signs me in with whichever one I used when I installed the stand-alone Evernote. I have hopes the Evernote people will correct this in the future. I’d really hate to have to keep uninstalling/ reinstalling just to access either account!

Evernote keeps adding features to let you add all kinds of media so keep checking back; I believe video apps may be available now. (check the Trunk section)  Bottom line, Evernote’s amazing as a project management tool. Or for people with ADHD like me. Rowrr!


The 5 Times SuperMunk Averted Terrorism

Happy 9/11 everybody!

*My SEO post is coming…wrote it waaay too long so I’m currently breaking it up into several posts. Enjoy this post for now*

Since I live in NY, I am always undoubtedly reminded of it. Such as, the time my boss made me run to the post office for stamps. On the 1st year anniversary of 9/11. Inside the gigantic ENOURMOUS post office behind Madison Square Garden. Yes, the really big one that takes up one entire cubic city block.Yes, the one with the long-ass lines where you stand in them for over an hour at least. On a slow day.

Here is a picture of it (thank you Google Maps):

Reeally huge post office!

Reeally huge post office!

But my boss reeeally needed those stamps (no stamp vending machines put in place there at time) and I prayed on the way over there I could make it in n’ out fast. In fact, I was whispering my prayer under my breath standing in line and this bitch on a cell phone shot me a dirty look and kept yapping.

After that, I swore off large public spaces during 9/11 as a sign of bad luck. And of course, I had to take the subway home- equally unerving. Especially when the damn train got stopped in between stations underground (we were literally under the East River!) so yea, lotta anxiety there. Longest hour of my life. :-X

Fear Alarm Set To…ON

Everyone’s FearAlarm© (I’m coining this term-copyright me, SuperMunk, 2009, All my rights are reserved! Fool!) is set on um, orange, and maybe, high? Watch dis.

You know when I took the Metro rail road to & from jury duty, I noticed a brown paper bag left on a seat across from me that looked full? and the top of the bag curled to closed.

And I though, RUH-ROH! I’m doomed! DOOMED!

Now they always have posters begging you to report this shit, but do they really care? Cuz I saw that ticket-taking metro employee pass by me a couple of times with disregard. The other ticket-taking dude was the same way! So I changed seats to 2 cars away and in my mind, rationalizing that it wouldn’t impact me any potential explosion that could arise from this. Thank God it was only 4 stops to my station!

Now I also avoid all the trains/ federal buildings/ large public spaces/ ports/ piers/ tunnels/ and anything else similar. We have all of these surrounding our great city, so I guess we’re more vulnerable?

It’s creepy to think about.

Soldiers, artillery, dogs, checkpoints

I used to work on Wall St. a few years back and commuted via the Weehawken ferry where every morning at the dock we had to open our bags to the ATF guys (they carry loaded arms- they do not fuck around!) to make sure we weren’t packing bombs or some shit. But everyone was too sleepy at that hour in the morning to give it too much thought, and automatically had their bags open upon entering the ferry. As if by some natural instinct; we’re just programmed now that way.

My morning commute!

My morning commute!

Just so happened that our line was by far the longest ferry commute on the Hudson River; at about 15 min. long;  from pier to pier. If you’re anxious, that’s a long time to be thinking about fear!

I also got used to seeing army dudes in camouflage parading up & down Penn Station, Grand Central, and the other transit depots with the occasional bomb sniffing dogs and military style assault weapons. We’re all used to seeing it that I’d think it’d be weird if those dudes just up & vanished one day. Of course, last time I was at Penn Station, some angry dude was screaming profanities at some couple, getting in their face and threatening to kill them. Nope, cops never around when you need ’em. Lunatics are everywhere in this town. Yikes!

So maybe this tactic  isn’t far fetched?

But I am grateful that much protection is around. It serves to calm me a bit.

Strange, the inconveniences the people get used to.

Oh, get off my ass! I meant the inconvenience of living with your fear alarm always turned on.

Always scanning for the nearest exit and well lit street. It’s exhausting!

So used to it.

Yes I am.

I gotta tell ya, I’ve never lived anywhere where you can keep your door unlocked. That is still a prepostorous notion to me: Unsafe and impractical. Well, except for my short stint in North Carolina. It was MINDBLOWING! to be able to go for a nightly stroll without the fear of getting jacked. I have never experienced that sense of tranquility. After a few days, my God! My FearAlarm© dissipated.

And then I moved back up here and boom! Returned with vengeance. Picked up rite where it left off. Unbelievable.

I gotta tell ya, for me it’s not such a big deal anymore. Since I never lived anywhere nice, I’ve always been on alert. In fact, I’ve actually dodged terrorism 5 times! Count ’em, 5!

The First Aversion

Get this, I was just about 2wks old. Yep! My parents brought me on a plane from Central America heading to P.R. And on that plane, she told papi that there were some fishy men, and she was getting bad vibes from them. She made sure to seat us far away from them. When they landed, everyone on that plane was stopped by the FBI and questioned about the men. They told mami they were looking for Shiite? Muslims but did not say why. Mami said they kept her and the other passengers in the dark about details. And that’s the long and short of it- she never heard from them again. This is the tale my mami recounted to me just a few weeks ago, and only because she remembered it after seeing some Madrid bldg. get blown up on tv two weeks ago.

The Second Aversion

My brother and I are just months apart. When we were in jr.high, he worked at the front office during his study hall time. The principal that day had the door slightly ajar and he overheard an angry conversation she put on speaker. The other voices on the phone identified themselves as some Colombian militia group who threatened to blow up the school the following Friday if their demands were not met. My brother didn’t hear the part where they requested anything, as he stepped away from the door to not get caught. Now I don’t know what resolution they came to but, mami called on Friday saying she was taking us to the doctor. We happily stayed home that day, and nobody in school ever came to know that story.

And the school did not blow up. It stayed the same as always.

The Third Aversion

I’m counting gang warfare as terrorist activity.

The very last day of highschool for me was very nerve wracking. In our school, fights broke out everyday. And once a week, a cop car was parked out front. To give you an idea, we had an 8mo. pregnant chick beat up 2 security guards because they wouldn’t permit her to go to the girl’s room. Because she didn’t have a hallway pass, despite permission from teacher. Yikes!

And why did the kids always fight inside the school? As one of them put it, “Better that a teacher come break it up. If we fight on the street, no one’s there to break it up so you get killed.” *gulp!*

And in my last week there, we had some incidents of students stealing other students’ gold jewelry, Timberlands, and just about anything they could get their grubby criminal hands on. Some joker kept screwing with the lights all week to make the theft easier, as was the ongoing rumor. And so people were getting angrier and angrier and more fights ensued.

Adding to the tension was the miserable June heat. We had no A/C – our school was plain ol’ ghetto- as in, when it rained outside it rained inside too. Especially around the stairwell. They had buckets for that.

And that last morning of school ever, I heard in homeroom someone drop the name LatinoKings saying they were coming into the school that day for a brawl. Maybe that explained the uh, twenty-somethings I saw wandering the halls that week – yeesh! And this is a school with security guards, mind you! I also remembered seeing from the bus 3 cop cars out front, 3 more at the other highschool (we had 2 highschools on the same lot- our district was that big!) and I thought to myself,

Fuck this mo’fuckin’ shit!

I didn’t sign in or stick around for homeroom. I walked out of the school> around the back> thru the path in the woods that emptied out into some residential area> walked all the way home. My mom was surprised to see me as I told her what happened. Screw attendance! Living is more important to me. As was graduating, which I did with no problem.

The Fourth Aversion (warning: a little depressing/ graphic)

Was, surprise surprise! 9/11 itself!

The night before, I stayed up all night drafting a ground plan of our kitchen as papi was having it renovated. It took me so long because i was working without my lead pencil/ adjustable ruler/ drafting table.

By the time I was done, it was almost 8am. I was having coffee, showing mami the drawing. She asked me if I was going to the city and i said no, I’m tired. Changed my mind.

A friend of mine had invited me to some fancy birthday at a club about 2blocks away from WTC that same evening. Usually I go to places early to stake them out if I am unfamiliar with them. I even had it planned how I was gonna check out the place early and hang out there all day and go to the Police Musem, NYSE tour, and crash at my friend’s place in the village. I never miss a party! And I was set to go early on the train to beat the morning rush hour traffic.

Alas, I was too tired from drafting all night. Which worked in my favor.

Was about to go to sleep when my cousin called (he never calls) and told us to turn on the news.

We saw one of the towers on fire. And we were like, damn! I hope they put the fire out quick!

Then a plane hit the other one! Another fire!

I already knew those people were doomed. No way you could evacuate that many people from a skyscraper that had over 100 floors!  Sadly I was right.

Then both towers collapsed. …………..

I should’ve been there. I came that close! *double gulp!*


The radio played this looooong beep sound. It was the Emergency Broadcast system and all stations went out.

And the rest is tragic history.

Nobody I know got hurt, thank goodness. But I will tell you some of my friends’ accounts of that day:

  • My Jersey friends said (they lived along the river) that the smoke burned for days. They could see and smell it from their balcony
  • My friend from that party said everyone got evacuated from all office bldgs. all over town
  • Another friend said his office sent him on an errand just north of Houston st. where everyone got a look at the (1st) low flying plane that hit the first tower. They also saw both towers fall and he said it felt like an earthquake
  • My now ex-bf said he and his roomate weren’t allowed on the bus that takes you into Manhattan (they lived in Brooklyn) and everyone stopped in the middle of the street/ traffic came to a standstill and saw the smoke where the financial district was
  • Ex-bf also said that someone came into his store the next day all trembling, and told them he saw some woman amidst the chaos at ground zero looking straight up as a falling brick sliced her head in half. I really hope that’s not true (v_v)
  • My friend’s aunt cleaned offices there but went to dentist appt. that morning. Faulty teeth saved her life!
  • I once dated this Asian guy who owned many internet properties and had his own office in the second tower. I often wonder if he made it out. I still have his business card in my photo album
  • My friend’s boyfriend worked around that area as a stock broker. He told me he was dodging debris left and right and felt that same earthquake. He got home safe but covered in construction debris. The ensuing PTSD sent him to stay in Italy for a month while he recovered

A few months after the mayhem, I went early in the morning to check out the area. World Trade Center was an open gap. All surrounding buildings and skyscrapers were covered in tall black tarps. Broken cinder blocks everywhere. Dusty streets. Dust covered stop signs, vehicles, traffic lights. Several cars, vans, crushed under beams and rubble.

It was a ghost town. Though it was 11 am, there was NOBODY in sight. There is no part of NYC that is ever empty! And that’s unusual for Manhattan. Except for one dude I saw;  think he was a homeless crazie. What an awful place – I was overwhelmed with a horrible down. So I got out of there fast and didn’t approach ground zero until about 3yrs after they posted those light beams coming from it.

I didn’t take pictures cuz I had no camera. Believe me the memories are vivid enough. Rite now I feel a bout of nausea just typing this shit.

*going for antacid tablets*

You wanna hear something incredibly fucked up?

The year before the terrorist attacks, me and my friend Poundcake went to World Trade Center. We were on a donut hunt since we heard there was a Krispy Kreme on the ground floor of one of the towers. We got our delicious donuts and sat in the square of WTC. For anyone who remembers, there used to be a black marble circular benchy somethingorother with a matching abstract sculpture in the middle of the plaza. People sat there during lunch hour on sunny days, when the fountain wasn’t turned on. We sat on it too, with our backs flat against the marble looking upwards.

And this, I swear. I fucking swear to you I’m not lying, but I turned to Poundcake and said:

“Wow, now that is damn big! Can you imagine if these were to fall?”


Can anyone say ‘creepy foreshadowing’?

Here’s an old schematic plan of the old WTC layout if you don’t remember.

The Fifth Aversion

Lo and behold! The last aversion to terrorism for SuperMunk!

I went to the Jersey City DMV which was near my new apartment. I went, and waited, and waited….

Until they called my name. I went up to the window and WHAT? They close the curtain on me!

I was told to return tomorrow. Terrific! They were closing 15min. early and I couldn’t be there tomorrow!

So I went the day after and got there even earlier.

So here we were (ex-bf accompanied me) and I was halfway up to getting my name called when all windows get closed down!

We were all looking at each other like, WTF? My ex-bf joked about another it being terrorist attack. I told him I’d believe it too- all the shit I’d gone thru it just wouldn’t surprise me. You could tell me a dancing bear on a unicycle was making his way to the galleria with a nuke strapped to his care bear regions and I’d believe you.

And some lady who worked in the DMV began ushering us outdoors. Of course some of us were pretty pissy about it, and no one was saying anything. No explanations. The whole thing looked like a fire drill.

We went outside following the flow of confused DMV people, and saw the upstairs people flowing out the elevators, and everyone who worked there was being escorted across the street, WAAYY across the street! The intersection was barricaded off, and black SWAT armor trucks and  SWAT teams scampering the grounds.

It looked like a parade with so many people! And armed officers. Um, ok?

Me and ex-bf stood next to some chicks whose employee badges stated they worked on the 4th fl. One of them was smiling and saying to the other that the building got a call from someone saying they put a bomb to explode inside the building.

WHOA! Not cool!

So we got Popeye’s around the corner and went home, all disturbed-like. We even forgot the cole slaw and cajun fries.

I, am one damn lucky beeyatch

And that’s not counting all the near-death experiences I’ve had which, I shall regale you with another time. So! Whenever you feel a wave of ennui wash over you, or you’re sitting in a small car with your annoying family, or drop hit after hit of acid on the couch because nothing exciting ever happens in your sleepy town, just think!

You are alive. Your limbs are in tact.

No getting killed in a long-shot freak accident or natural disaster for you! Cuz you are alive! CATCH THE FEVER OF LIVIN’ AN’ BREATHING!

It could definitely get worse. We could all be in the middle of a warzone starving to death. With malaria. Ew.

Look, even if you lose everything, you have your life and you can rebuild!

Everyone makes a comeback. Just look at Mickey Rourke. We all have that ability as long as we’re alive and kicking.

Some people weren’t so lucky, may they rest in peace. I was.  And though I teetered on the edge, (too dramatic? fine- I’ll tone it down) I ditched the grim reaper many times and I am grateful to be alive. I especially remember this on the days where I get ultra whiny 😉 Corny yes, but regardless: thank you drunk angel over my shoulder!

And remember to tell your loved ones today how much you appreciate them, cuz you never know if tomorrow may be the day you get hit by a bus! Owie!

How I Divide My Time 2

For better, for worse, here it is:

Slow progress
Slow progress

You see what is transgressing here? Focused on actual drawings, I have! Been very hands-on lately. In fact, you can see my work at this address:

An unfortunate side effect  of the overuse of the right brain results in serious bouts of depression. Yep, preeeetty sure I sound like I know what I’m talking about. Paging Dr. House, I think I’m onto something here!

For me, it comes & goes in waves. Hideous excrutiatingly annoying waves of whose amped-up backlash bitch-slaps me HARD, thus impeding any and all progress.

This past Monday I slept 13hrs. if that means anything.

I try reading or watching comedies on tv or online, just to trick my brain into positive healing. Sometimes it works. Sometimes.

I’m spiritual so I also try to meditate or engage in prayer. Sometimes it helps. Sometimes.

Us creative types need constant stimuli in a similar vein, which is why you always see artists packed into covens and on the extreme side of things, loners who rebuke all manner of social obligations. Fact is, we need to be amongst others that help influence our creative endeavors.

You have no idea how easy it is to fall off the creative wagon, so to speak. I’ve had several years go by where I just haven’t done one single creative thing, because that light inside of me has been shut off. To get that mojo flowing again is really freaking hard! So living in solidarity right now is not helping me in any way whatsoever.

And being hit with depression is another stumper. Both of these in combination eradicates all ambitions.

So it becomes difficult to just ‘snap out of it’.

I could be in the middle of making some detailed drawings. I could be watching tv, snacking on some edamame and all of a sudden, WHAM! It’s like my mood sinks to the floor. It’s a digusting physical feeling of plaguing melancholy. It feels so damn REVOLTING. So bad, that I actually considered taking some of Mami’s pharmaceuticals.

Kinda hard to get work done when your body shuts down on ya!

And it’s gotten so much worse in recent years. Of course trying and FAILing, and falling down the bottom of the barrel over & over again really doesn’t help!  *Note to self: I gotta cut that shit out!

Having family to talk to I suppose helps, but we grew up without any family around us, and nearest relatives are about 1,000 miles away, so! No family to talk to.

Now usually normal healthy people have friends who’ll come over and cheer them up. I have no such lifeline; they’re all residing in the city and it would take a disaster of Katrina proportions to get their collective assess out here for a visit.

I have more social interaction with Twitter pals just to give you an idea of how pathetic it all is.

Anyhoo, I’d like to clarify right now if there’s any misconceptions here.

  1. The ‘being poor thang’ doesn’t really faze me since I’ve always been in fact, poor. Got a good handle on ghetto-living, I do!
  2. The not-having-a-boyfriend thing isn’t that big a deal for me since logistically there’s no time to devote to a relationship at this point.
  3. And the not-having-ca$h thing I’ve gotten used to since, hmm, puberty? Never been materialistic either. I’m not one of these girls who gets their nails done every 2 wks. or has to, JUST HAS TO, go shopping! Or go out and be seen. There’s nowhere to go and nothing to do anyways. Hell, I don’t even know where to hang out out here. I don’t know anyone out here either so, fuck it.

I can in fact, deal with the failure and sometimes the loneliness, but not the depression.

It holds me hostage and I have to wait it out.

And wait, and wait, and wait some more. Until it passes. Much like a hurricane.

The body shuts down- I barely come out of the room if only to drink some tea. I guess I’m admitting my depression for the very first time in my life and not to family & friends. To my own damn self.

I feel it’s imperative to discuss my low points in order to paint the whole picture of my rise to the top. Very few times you hear the ugly side of the early days coming from keynote motivational speakers. But now you know. No one’s perfect in this world and I will never try to give any readers that impression. This is, my major obstacle that I currently navigate around.

So if it looks like I’m slacking off or you see a great void between posts, now you know. Everyone wants their heroes to be infallible but, truthfully I’m just another human being trying to survive. And watch the latest ep. of True Blood. Cheers for now.